I have been slacking lately. One blog every four days does not satisfy my desire to go back and read these every few months.
I came to a realization this weekend: I am SO not COLLEGE. I am a college student, but in the social sense of the word, I don't know that I live up to the hype of the stereotype (although I am not college, I am a rhymer). Now don't get me wrong, I am not saying this to express any sadness at not being "cool" enough to be considered "College," nor do I want to show disdain for anyone who thinks that they are. I decided my freshmen year of college that I wanted my next four years to look different from most. I guess technically you could say that I decided on June 13, 2003 that I wanted my life to look different until the day that I met my Maker. When I decided to give my life to Christ, I signed on for a different way of thinking, a belief in something not tangible, and in turn for a life that looked different from a lot of the stereotypes that our world has set forth.
Despite the fact that I consciously made these decisions to not be "College." I find myself time and time again in situations where I can be tempted to really dishonor the will of God. I am learning, slowly, my capacity to resist these temptations, and my triumphs and realizations affirm that God is continually working in me. This weekend was the Spring version of the bi-yearly Xavier University Pong Madness Tournament. This whole she-bang is a play on the March madness going on consisting of 64 two-man teams playing for the title of...what? Best beer pong duo on campus. It doesn't get much more "College" than that, right? It was a really nice day outside, so between hitting golf balls, lunch, snack at yagoot and a movie later on taht evening, I walked across the street and through some backyards to mingle with some friends who were out enjoying the weather, and participating in the "tourney."
I had such a good time hanging out with some friends who I haven't really spent much time with since my freshie year. I realized that the trend for MOST (not all) is to become less "College" the older you get. So, it was good to hang out with senior friends, especially realizing that I know so few people now that I am a senior. I got pretty worked up watching these dumb games. Why...im competitive. Ridiculous though. Embarrassing really. I realized how worked up I can get over petty things and felt really silly. Because of this I didn't let myself go back over ot hang out after showering. Instead I went to the movies with a friend. Better to not let myself be in those situations where I will say something dumb...and..."college." I just realized though how my desires and things I enjoy doing are so different from so many of my college friends...and I don't feel left out. There were times that I felt like I might be missing out on something, but the Lord has really proven to me that I am better off the way that I am. And I speak for no one else here. God has a plan for each of us, and He works however and whenever He chooses.
This probably made little to no sense. lol